big sorry for my lie

hm today i feel so flat, you know why? because i miss my esa more than he know. my day without esa is like bird need a tree to stay in there(perumpaannya ckck). you think im too much, but thats true. (udalah ya pake indonesia aja biar lebih jelas z)
jadi, kenapa gue bilang gue kangen banget sama esa tuh soalnya gue berantem sama dia huhu berantem paling parah. dia marah sama gue, gara gara hm someone lah ya. gue juga bingung kenapa dia bisa marah banget kesel banget, oke gue emang salah boong sama dia tapi gue juga ngga boong juga aaaaah taudeh gimana ya. tapi menurut dia gue itu boong, nyepelein huhu. semalem gue kan smsan sama dia, dianya yg jutek gitu ck. pagi pagi dia sms minta maaf buat yg semalem terus gue bales eh dia ngga bales lagi sampe malem. terus gue telfon, diangkat juga akhirnya. gue ngomong gue jelasin, tapi tanggepan dia dingin banget jutek oh god! what happen with him. he is look so different!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gue tahan, tapi ngga bisa. kan kan kan kaaaaaaaaaaan lama lama gue nangis elaaaaaaah cry cry cry itu namanya cengeng. hey! you are a strong girl baby :'(
i miss you sa, i wanna laugh with you(again), story every little thing, and anything that i usually do with you. tapi esanya lagi marah, yauda tahan aja deh ya huhu aku takut sa sama kamu yg sekarang(30-31). maafin aku sa ngga bisa jadi apa yg kamu mau, bikin kesel kamu, ngecewain kamu tapi aku sayang banget sama, you must trust me for this if i love you more than i love my self! get well soon ya, i miss you baby...........................